Yup....I know you have all been here. You feel as if you are in a plastic bubble afraid to make one false move. You wonder what the person before you is actually thinking. You've been unemployed for how long? You see it in their eyes. They question your worthiness as a prospective employee. They question your willingness to do the job. They put up impenetrable barriers that bar anyone who doesn't fit their criteria. You feel stuck in this quagmire of hopelessness and defeat. You want to quit and sink down into the quagmire. You ask yourself why am I still beating myself up like this. I know. I still feel like this. It isn't easy to get out of the quagmire even when you see helping hands trying to put you out of it.
I know that there are a lot of voices in your head right now. Some are pressing you to get a job...any job...now! They don't understand why you are still unemployed after all this time. They expect you to jump at any opportunity that comes your way like a lifeline. You want to....but there is something holding you back. You can't explain what that something is...but you try to.
I know. I have been struggling myself...and yes I have taken two jobs already which only lasted a month each. I understand why those jobs weren't right for me. I took them because I broke down to pressure. Will I do it again?...Maybe. Yet when I really think about what I'm doing right now...I can't really justify jumping in to anything without researching whether or not it will be a good fit for me. I have to question why I'm actually applying for this company and not that one. Do they hold the same values are I do?
There is a bigger issue here...a question you need to ask yourself when you do your job search. How will that position reflect you as a person? Perception is key. If you want someone to remember you as part of an organization that fosters good community relationships and is morally fit, then you need to be looking at companies that share those values. It isn't easy....especially when you feel the walls of doubt and despair move towards you. I have to keep telling myself that God is in control. He is the master of my life and the Savior of my soul.
