Sixty fifth week-Trying to answer the 64 thousand dollar question

I have been asking myself why I'm still not employed for many months now. Maybe it's because of this blog. Maybe it's because I put God first in my life instead of second or third. Maybe it's because I'm still so introverted when the job market embraces the extrovert. I don't know. The only things I do know is that I have to stop "banging my head against the wall" in frustration and anger. I've admittedly done a lot of that lately.

I'm also feeling overwhelmed and desperate. Neither one are very good feelings to have especially while searching for a job. There are barriers that now seem impossible for me to break down. One of the biggest is that I've been unemployed now for over a year. That's a huge gap for a potential employer to waive and it's understandable from their point of view that they just don't want to take a chance on me. There is also the fact that I have a very difficult time expressing myself verbally which makes it very hard to convey what I need and what I can offer to a potential employer. I am very good with written communication, and not surprisingly prefer written communication over verbal communication.

So...would anyone want to pay me for this? Again...I'm battling with at least a hundred thousand others who have both great written and verbal communication skills. Will I continue this blog until I can't do it due to lack of funds...maybe...maybe not. My hope and dream is to end this blog with gainful employment.

I do have some good news. One of my fellow "sufferers"....who has been unemployed for over 3 years finally landed a job....just about the time when it seemed he would be left out in the streets and marked as one of the homeless and helpless. I'm praying it doesn't come to that for me.