Another really horrible week this week. My motivation to keep going has been shot down. I'm really struggling in two areas, as I feel inadequate to handle the pressure being put on me to be the perfect job candidate and try to bring my "baby"....the historical society up. There is too much I really don't know about non-profits, so it's definitely a learning experience for me. Desperation has set in as I scramble to find information while still trying to find work.
It's hard when you can't even find motivation to get out of bed in the morning. I had a few mornings like that. I know my situation is not as bad as some others. I'm not facing eviction like some are. I can still pay for food and rent...but that could change soon. I struggle to remain positive.
What are my next steps? I'm not even sure. I could contact a few non-profits to see if I could intern with them. I could start advertising my services as a historian. Someone did suggest this to me. I know I do have to get past this feeling of being torn in two and the enormous stress that I'm now under to get a job...any job. This is going to be very difficult.
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