Fiftieth week-Looking Up and Finding Hope

I had another good week this week reflecting on sacrifices made. I realized that as much as I'm struggling right now, there are others out there that are completely and totally lost. You know who you are. I don't have to say anything right now, because I've been there. I've looked up from the pit of despair and frustration, only to find that people will mock your stand. The only way out is to find that bit of hope, that ray of sunlight in an otherwise gloomy situation. I never expected to be out of work this long.

There is some movement in the job front. I know I have to steel myself for disappointment if I don't get the position I interviewed for this week. I have a feeling though that this job is a good fit for me. I am going to find hope in the positive response I received and do the hard work I need to do. It is scary...this waiting for someone to pick you from the rest of the candidates. You worry about what impressions you made or if they'll hold the fact that you've been unemployed so long against you.

I have to stop and leave it in God's hands, not my own. That's the bottom line. If God wants me there, he will make a way for me to be there. He's done it before. He knows my needs and has fulfilled them completely every time.