Fifty first week-Hanging onto hope

I have to admit that it was really tough this week to hang onto hope. You worry so much about the impression you are making on-line and whether or not you are showing a true portrait of yourself to the world. Do they like me? Will I have to compromise my beliefs in order to get a job? What are my next steps? It is enough to really mess you up. I think and I believe that I have to be true to myself and others. I can't be the chameleon that some expect me to be. I have to question why when push comes to shove that employers shy away from people that are willing not to be that chameleon. Doesn't any company respect the qualities and moral values that we've all (at least those of us who had a stable family life) grew up with?

It frightens me too that so many are too willing to label anything contrary to the ever shifting moral base as a hate crime. It also makes me wonder if that's not the reason why I'm still unemployed after so much time has passed. Where is the boundary on this? How many hoops do I have to jump through to make an employer hire me? What am I willing to do in order to secure a position anywhere? All these questions have been surfacing in my mind as I continue diligently to find work.

After this length of time, my situation has become quite desperate like most of the people I've reached out to in the past weeks. I have to constantly tell myself that I do have something to offer and that I'm valuable. Otherwise I can see myself slipping into that deep dark pit of despair again. For some this will be the end literally. There are no hard and true statistics out there of people who have literally given up and decided that life is no longer worth living. Yet I do believe that being unemployed for long periods of time drains you of life and the ability to function.

So how do you pick yourself up? For me, it's my faith in God that has sustained me through this deep and dark trial. I know he will provide my every need because he's doing it right now. That's why I can't compromise on my core values of honesty and integrity even if it means that I remain unemployed.