Sixty second week-Resolved to push on

This week I resolved to push on even though there is a very real threat that my credit will be ruined due to circumstances beyond my control. I know what this means. It means another black spot attached to me and another reason for potential employers to pass on me. Yet I have to keep going just to keep my sanity and to fulfill the unemployment requirements. I decided not to dwell on my current frustrating situation. I can't do that. I must press on...not just for me but for the people I support.

I am past the stage where I desperately take anything just to be working. I realize that any retail job would entail long hours, little pay and a work environment that I'm physically not capable of handling except on a part time basis. I am past the stage of pleading for a job, any job....employers are turned off by that and frankly I would be too. I admit I still do struggle with the questions, some of which are unspoken, about why I've been unemployed for so long. There is a very strong stigma attached to me right now. Unfortunately I can't seem to shake it off and let people know that I'm still learning even though I'm unemployed.

My focus has been on non-profits due to the fact that I've started a non-profit historical society in February. I have taken some on-line courses in non-profit management and what it takes to form a non-profit organization. My head is swimming with all the information, but I feel that I am making progress with it. It is a passion of mine, so it helps me to press forward with all I still need to do.