Sixty eighth week-Another crisis looms in the horizon

Yep...the title is right. Another crisis is staring me in the face right now. I can deny it, push it under the rug or just ignore it and hope it goes away. At this point in time, many of us probably are see-sawing between feeling desolate and hopeful. The desolation comes with the cold hard fact that you're not going to get the job you need and want to have. You are going to have to settle for getting something you absolutely detest in order to survive. I've been trying to brace myself for the impact. It hasn't been easy. The people around you can be insensitive to what you're going through because they've never gone through it. Even the "so called" experts can get it wrong.

I sometimes let myself sink into despair wondering if I'll still be able to maintain this Internet contact for much longer. There are no guarantees that I will because of monetary restraints and accessibility. Thankfully the Lord is providing and I can be hopeful that he will continue to provide for me.

As many of you know, there are a number of issues that I'm struggling with now. One, of course, is that fact that I've been unemployed for so long. I can't seem to get across to anyone that I really have been working all this time, but just not getting paid for it. I get so excited about the event that I'm coordinating in September that I forget to mention...."Oh, by the way....I really could use a job now." When I do that, I get "burned."

How can you justify it? Unfortunately the only way is to keep pressing and letting people know that you are available for work....Work won't come to you. You have to sometimes "scream" that you're there and willing to help them in whatever capacity they need. This has been hard for me to get across to others. Maybe it's because not many people do this because it seems like you're desperate for work. I am. I need a job now...and that's the bottom line.